ASMA HAMID

weh 15:03 ? apasal kau lain? mana ada aku lain? -.- aku bukan baru kenal kau selama *semalam tak eh? lol kau anti budak2 dlm kelas kau anti aku mana ada. ? semua? mana ada -.- apakah ini? kau x payah lah nuddy kata pun kau mcm anti dgn dia Oh, she told me that d. but mana ada. This was unpublished. What is this.

I'm half 'Korean' (if you ignore my skin colour) and half Malay right now. Hair has been cut and now I have a fringe. An uneven one at that and no, I did not cut it myself. I think my hairdresser can only 'layer' people's hair and not... you know. An unfortunately, I have a single eye lid on my left eye and a double eyelid on my right eye. Covering the right side of my face, I'd look like a total tanned korean... not really HAHA. Went to the doctors and it was... Doctor: Kenapa? Me: My mata Doctor: Bengkak? Me: Kot Doctor: Sakit tak? Me: Sakit Doctor: *writes me a prescription* Me: Dah ke? Doctor: *nods* Me: Thank you   *leaves the room* THE BIGGEST LOSER UPDATE: I don't know how many grams I lost but I am now starting to control my food intake again after totally ignoring it for half a year. It's tough to be honest. Wanting to eat more but you know that you can't. Being hungry at night but couldn't go downstairs for s...

How do you go from zero to hero? No. How do you go from 16 to zero? That's the question. I am out on a mission to get my size 1x to a size way less. In 122 days, my mission will be a success and I will be getting a free spa trip. However, my ultimate goal is to lead a healthy life style, carry only the needed fat and have an ideal BMI. But we all know that there is no point of trying to lose weight if there is no will. And this is where some competition comes in. THE BIGGEST LOSER ZAGGEDANON VS CIK MINAH SAYANG 122 DAYS ALL PAID FOR SPA TREAMENT (just to make it more interesting) Do I have confidence in myself? Definitely. Am I going to win? Definitely. Our judge is Susu  to make sure that we're playing fair. Updates on THE BIGGEST LOSER will be posted every Sunday with the updates of what I'm doing to win this game. I'm looking forward to it, Cik Minah Sayang is looking forward to it and I'm sure my imaginary readers are looking...

Continuation... Michelle Michelle, she came this year. She moved here from Kedah. I didn't like her at first, I didn't know her and I didn't like her. And that was because everyone started talking about her. Being in 5ST1, all I heard about her was from the mouth of others... it was all "She's more pro than you Asma." "Her chemistry's better than you." and all of that. How can I like her when the way people described her was by comparing her to me.. if you know what I mean. But then, she started going to our tuition AND I SWEAR, SHE'S LIKE THE (INSERT EVERYTHING NICE) GIRL EVER. She was a sweetheart. She's well nice, friendly and she just fit perfectly. I really can't imagine the whole group without her in it anymore. It would've been better if she was with us in 4ST2 and the years before that, we could've had waaaaaaay more fun. Plus, she keeps the guys controlled (random slaps and all). She was like the missing piec...

The blur adds more value to it I think it's the second day in? Yeah, second day in to the holidays. How do I feel? I'm already bored. But I'm going out today with my mates, that's a plus I guess? Right, so today, my main objective is to talk about my mates... one... by... one. Real to honest, honest to real... whut? Bon Qui Qui  As you all know or probably don't know, Bon Qui Qui left Malaysia for nearly a year and totally skipped the whole of Form 3 except for the PMR bit. During BQQ's depart, the Awesome Foursome basically stayed together through email, our blog and facebook. What I only realised afterwards is that our offline connection just wasn't there. When BQQ came back and we got in Form 4. One of the Awesome Foursome left school and that was when everything started coming back. The stories of this person doing this and that person finding out about this and this person did that. So many stories that made me (I think?) not want to even hav...

Basically, SPM is over. Done with. A break from studying for 3 months. Planned to open up an online shop but that plan went down the drain when I asked for permission to. Which sucks. Where am I gonna get the money to buy more albums? Lee Seung Gi's mini album is waiting for me... at the shops. Oh well, lets learn some korean, watch Korean Dramas, eat Korean Food, bake and sleep. I feel lifeless. I don't know where I'm heading, what I'm going to do... I feel lost in this massive world of boredom. 

Happy Birthday Mami.

Al-Andalus: The Art of Islamic Spain A week of SPM has passed. Four subjects, 8 papers in a week. And I was able to stand it. Sejarah was surprisingly not filled with KBKK questions which made everything pretty saddening. But now, I shall put those stuff aside and get ready for the other 5 subjects... pretty heavy subjects too. They weigh tonnes compared to BM... haha joke. I'm going to eat some instant noodles now.

Eszter Burghardt 1 more day. In exactly 23 hours and 30 minutes, I'll be in the exam hall starting my BM paper. I can't wait and yet I'm scared. I'm scared that I might forget things like what my name is or something. If people read my blog, I'd ask you guys to pray for me but no one's reading this, so dear imaginary readers, please pray that I won't forget stuff and that what I've learnt for the past 11 years will just spill out on all the SPM papers I'll have to do. Thanks. 

Ben Giles 3 more days? Ya Allah. WHAT AM I DOING STILL BLOGGING?!?! 

patperry So I'm watching Woo Young's Making Film of Sexy Lady and it's buffering which I do not know why cos Unifi isn't supposed to let videos buffer. But anyway, today was officially the last day of school, I think? I mean after this, it'd be just straight out SPM nothing else so yeah, last day of school. Today being the last day of school, we stayed at the hall for the whole day. Bushrah (?) came and stuff. Mohon restu was weird. "Teacher, thank you and I'm sorry if I did anything wrong. And I'm sorry that I slept in your class." "You slept in my class?" "Oopss.. you didn't realise?" "It was probably because you talked so much." and "Asma, I know you can do it." "So ni lah Asma." Did I miss something here? We set our tables for SPM and I'm sitting next to Faqil and Aaron, behind Azurah and in front of Alex. Right at the back. I'm on the second row and second c...

of Tumblr Didn't want to blog at first but then I have to wait for the flash player to load so what better way to waste time than blog? And it's done! How quick. Unifi. Go get yours quick so you can 'potong'. Did I get the right advert? Probably not.  My classmates were super shocked when I asked them how many questions in Paper 1 Sejarah I need to get right in order to get an A+, with super shocked faces they asked me back "Kau target A+ ke?". I do not know whether to be offended or not. I want straight A+ but being able to get it and getting it is a totally different story. Which should not be thought now. I spend time humouring myself with stand up comedies these days. AMERICA'S GOT TALENT STAND UP COMEDY

observando The closer I get to SPM, the more questions I do, the more I realise that there are so many things that I haven't memorised yet. I don't even know. And here I am still blogging. I feel as if I've been at home and haven't been out at all. And I want to but I can't bring myself to ask... not because I'm scared that they wouldn't let me but because I know I shouldn't. HUMANITY

Perfect meme for me, right now 7 days from now, I will be doing my SPM. Exams that I studied 2 years for and my SPM results will be the answer to where I'll be and what I'll be doing in the future. Nervous? Not really. Alhamdulillah for that. I just hope that the nervousness is not building up in my body without myself knowing. Because I don't want to go sweating nervous sweats while doing my BM. Heck no. But I'm glad I'm not the only one. Susu and Momoi are in this with me... the only difference is that they're bloody smart and mega rajin and I'm not.

jmfenner91 Out. Out of ideas that is. Randomly posting something just because I feel like doing it. Sejarah is still on hold at the side. Don't feel like doing it to be honest but I know that I have to. Currently melting and crunching up Kinder Bueno in my mouth. I love it when the outside is cold and the inside is soft but that won't happen... which is upsetting. Puan Sharifah's favourite quote (?) sentence (?) compliment is "So cute~~~" Yeahhh... Muaz has been going up and down up and down. I don't think he knows what he's doing. 

itsabreeze Something I hate, something I really really hate. Sellers who increase the price of the items they are selling after all the preorders have closed. That's what you call bullshitting your customers. You tell them that something is RM130 w/o postage at first while another shop is selling it for RM138 with postage so knowing that I'll buy two, ofcourse I ordered with the first shop. However, she suddenly messaged me saying that the price from the supplier is actually RM145 w/o postage after all the shops have closed their preorders. That's like RM15 difference. WHY? I pledge that I will never ever cheat my customers and make them feel how I am feeling right now when/if I become a business woman.

The day has started. School hasn't. I should go to school. Hakim's back. He's a pain. He's reading this. Such a pain.

I Don't Need A Man; Miss A Trying to finish everything non-SPM related by this week. Trying to finish Sejarah, Agama and all the science subjects by this week. Possibilities? Lets see... later. There's only 12 days left (I think?), I don't feel anything. No nervousness, I just know that I need to really study my ass off for it. Like trials. It feels as if I'm just taking a test not an exam that will probably be the reason of my success (or failure but lets not hope that) in the future. A post, no... a break after every chapter. Gonna try to finish off Sejarah Form 5 by today... oh and my BM tuition homework too.

From  disposable-herox I wasted a whole day yesterday talking about the new age movement, freemasons, illuminatis and sleeping. Regrets? A whole load of them. Have you ever tried typing with a french keyboard. Mad tiring, mad annoying. Currently at Jaja's house: She slept on the floor last night to let me sleep on her bed. I'm feeling guilty so I'm letting her sleep on the bed right now - because she's still asleep. It seems as if I can't wake up late these days and it feels awesome that I can't. I'm doing something right for once. It started of hard but then it got easier and now I just can't revert to my old habits of waking up at whatever time I want. The key to waking up early is showering or exercising straight after you wake up.

Have you ever disrespected a teacher that have taught you before? Have you ever chatted bad about a teacher that have taught you before? I have but I've reflected on myself and I've apologised. But never in my life have I ever said stuff like "Cikgu tu bodoh", "That teacher is dumb" or "The teacher's daft". But just recently, today actually, I heard a story from a friend of mine that a junior asked her "Macam mana kau boleh dengar dekat cikgu bodoh tu?" while an English teacher was telling her something. If this kid was good in English, I wouldn't mind but I can tell you that the kid probably couldn't even introduce her/himself in English without making a grammatical error. I don't want to see the kid succeed, I don't even think she/he can anyway. Not with an attitude like that.  SPM starts in 17 days. 

Ernst Haeckel Understanding something you thought you'd never understand. Feels nice don't it? Thought that school today would be like yesterday - boring but it wasn't. I was glad that I went. I finally understood about the hormones that gets excreted and bla bla bla. And it made my day. I think it rained early this morning. I hope it'll rain again. Will be going to Jaja's tomorrow until Sunday because Mami, Papa and Muaz are ditching me for Hakim. Kidding, they'd never do that. They love me too much (stayed at home the most). It's Hakim's convocation so they're flying off to Langkawi to bring his stuff back for the holidays so that Hakim wouldn't need to bring so much when he comes back home later. Lucky PMR kid. 

Some Malaysians are lucky to have the chance to grow up overseas. Growing up overseas exposes us to so many different cultures and religions (especially if you're living in Cheetham Hill!). Back where I used to live, I had 3 best classmates. An English, an Indian and a Libyan. So I communicated daily with people of different races. Thinking back, there were never really any problem about racism in school except this one time when a dark skinned kid called a dark skinned teacher a ' nigger ' but that was it.  To say that there were many racism problems out of school would be a bit ... because at the place I used to live, it doesn't matter what race you are or who you are, if you pick a fight, shit will happen. The Pakistanis fought with the English, the English fought with the English, the Pakistanis fought with the Pakistanis, the mixed group fought with the mixed group. It's all the same. But what I see in Malaysia is this culture (I don't know...

I've never been a fan of rainbows but I've never hated it but isn't this pretty. I've always loved the rain and BM tuition. The rain, even though it's annoying sometimes (couldn't go out, gets the shoes wet, drenches me and my clothes) makes me smile. I don't run around in the rain, instead I shelter from it but the sound, the smell (of polluted rain) and the wet grounds that come with it magically calms me down. When I'm sad, the rain makes me happy. I'm not sure if I'm just the opposite of everyone but the rain has always been my best friend, back in Manchester and now here in Malaysia. I don't like it when it's warm... therefore I don't like it when the sun's out. What am I doing in Malaysia?!

From proudduck.com I get jealous of people who can go to any random shop and just get anything they want because they can fit in them. I want to wear nice clothes too. I want to look nice too. I want to be thin too. I want to wear heels too. I want to wear cute dresses and jeans too. I want to wear really nice scarves too. I want to have those fashion blogs too. Don't you?

Nicked it of Tumblr with wishes that mornings in Malaysia would be the same Reading proudduck.com gave me this massive urge to blog. It has been a few months since I last did this and now SPM is so near. So why exactly am I blogging? With Nasi Lemak Ayam Rendang, Milo from the fridge next to me and Play's I Must Not Chase The Boys playing, I'm chilling in front of the laptop with no thoughts of SPM. Just kidding. With just 20+ days (?) until SPM, you really just can't ignore it. My Nasi Lemak is currently my inspiration source so lets have some carbs, proteins and some other things I don't know that are in my Nasi Lemak. Or not.  Sometimes, I feel so lazy to study that I don't and I actually wonder why. But just then, while waiting for the Mak Cik in front of KFC to pack my Nasi Lemak, I concluded that I am not lazy. I'm just so stressed out that SPM is near that my head is going to burst if I study. Of course, that's not true at all. If I was in a...

End of year trip will be to Langkawi. A scout trip with my mates. 

Don't think about it anymore. It's in the past. I've grown up from that phase. It's not a problem to me anymore. So don't worry. My thoughts has matured and I now understand. 

Unforgettable experience got me missing it.  Thanks to Q's "abang" who drives this thing Another volunteer who volunteered with us Family potrait

De: You know that new girl's a pro. Dz: Yeah, she's a pro. Ace-uh. De: She got 90+ for her (something) Me: Kay then, *nods* go marry her. De: I rejected her already. Dz: Me too. As if she wanted you guys in the first place. -.-'

부디 사랑이 아니길 부디 그대만 아니길 손톱만한 마음마저 허락치 않기를 I miss this girl too. Dad's telling me to send an email to KAIST asking if I can get in with my SPM results. I'll get Mami to send it. I have 2 camping trips coming up. One in March and a Camporee in April. I honestly couldn't wait. Mak left for Holland yesterday. KLIA reminded me so much of my first time going down that escalator. Made me feel like going back to Manchester.

Showing your backside to people is awkward. These girls, I miss them. Had to take pictures of today's event. I had to stand up, my backside facing the sitting audience, taking pictures. Super duper awkward. But it was nothing. I just realised that I don't sleep in class anymore. Asma is proud of Asma. Civics was super weird. All the groups had to go up and perform but three of us didn't. One of them being me. Teacher only realised 2 people who didn't go up aka me and this one other guy. So the class ended with the repetition of the word "DUET!" Duet kepala otak hang.

What I am : A bad daughter and a bad sister Without realizing, I make my parents upset. A while later, when I've realised, I would regret what I did. Then that's that. I don't say sorry neither do I ask for forgiveness. I get mad at my parents for no valid reason, usually just because I'm not in the mood. I wish I had my own psychologist.

Sundown, Friday twilight in the big town. No, I'm not going to say who 'this friend' is. I don't think I want this friend to know that I miss this friend. WTH am I saying. LOL. They had this badminton thing yesterday, I didn't go. Going would make me feel so left out. So I didn't go. It's just so hard trying to fit in with my classmates. I feel lonely in class, I swear. Sometimes I would go to the back of the class because at least, I'd feel less lonely there with those ST2s that moved to ST1. I don't really do much when I'm with them but sitting with them, it just brings back the feeling of actually having classmates who knows you. And I regret doing something last year. I regret studying for my end of year exams, last year. I swear. I don't know about my future but the present, right now, I wish I didn't study. At least, I could be with S, Q and Z.

난 난 꿈이 있었죠 So I have this one friend. We used to smile at each other and say hi and talk to each other every time we see each other. We fought and we picked on each other most of the time but we were still friends. Well this friend, when we moved class, stopped saying hi to me and stopped talking to me unless I start the whole thing first. This friend used to be the one that started all the fights, conversations and hi's but now, if I want to talk to this friend, I'll have to be the one that starts the conversation. This friend used to come and sit behind me and pick on me but now, I have to go sit with this friend of mine as this friend wouldn't come and sit next to me or behind me anymore. I don't know, it might be just me but this friend is trying to avoid me. I don't know what I did but I miss the old days. I'm not expecting this friend to change back though.

Noreul joahae I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I can no longer see my future. I don't know what I'll be 10 years from now. I can't see where I'll be 10 years from now. I am lost and I can't find my way out. Everything I do now is a waste of time. Doing this is a waste of time. Sleeping is a waste of time. Thinking is a waste of time. The only thing that isn't is memorizing. All I need to do now is memorize everything that is in my Form 4 and Form 5 text books. That is all there is to it now but even if I do that, I still don't know what is waiting for me in the future.

"Asma, the MC! You were great up there. Teachers were asking me who you were so I said that you're Asma and that I am your teacher. I was so proud." O.o "Okay, so Mr President has given his answer, now... Mrs President." Mwohya? a. I'm not a president b. I'm not a presiden't wife c. I'm not married yet

Won MBLAQ 100% ver from GO Msia KMusic Store . Got to love online shops like those. Told Papa in January that I wouldn't enter competitions anymore but I cannot resist. If someone offers you RM100 for free, would you take it? You obviously would and so would I. So these are what competitions are to me. My effort to win competitions are less than RM1 of an album that costs RM40 because they usually just tell us to give them a phrase and stuff like that. And those stuff are easy... if you have a heart that truly loves that specific band or singer... or if you're good at lying... which I am not. Anyway, I won with: I deserve to win MBLAQ 100% ver album because I fell for them after they impressed me with their vocals, dance and personalities. They don't just capture my heart but also my ears, my eyes and my mouth because I honestly could not keep my eyes shut, ears deaf or mouth close while watching their performances from way back then. Went to Taylor's Sri H...

I had to be the MC for today's assembly. I was told that my English is too 'fasih' making me speak too fast. I don't really know if that's supposed to be a compliment or an insult. I was also told that my accent (which I don't have) slipped out. I was nervous. But Chen Yik stayed with me all through the assembly which he wasn't supposed to do. And when I told him to get off, he still stayed and said that it doesn't matter. My Ketua Kumpulan is better than yours. Damn right, he's better than yours. LOL.

I haven't updated for ages but who the hell cares. "Truth or dare?" "Dare." "Dance Gee in front of..." "Derek." "Tak best ah, dia rapat kot dengan Derek." Rapat my arse. Oh & HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANA!